Today as I was answering questions in a packet that will go to my advisor and college counselor, I stumbled upon a question that caught me by surprise. The question was this: What tentative areas of study or preprofessional directions have you considered for the future? Now this question doesn't seem to be particularly puzzling, but I have to say that it kind of scared me. However, I answered the question right away. But after I looked it over, my response scared me even more than the question. I had written down about four or five areas of study that I have considered. I know this packet isn't a final decision on my life, but it sure feels like it. Depending on how I answer these questions, it could alter my life significantly. It's almost like a sliding doors situation in a way. If I put down one area of study that I'm interested in and not the other, it could factor in to which college I will attend in the future. What if I say this and not that? How will that affect my life? It's starting to seem like this a life-changing questionnaire when it really shouldn't be. I'm only 17! Most days I can't even decide what I want for breakfast let alone the rest of my life.
These days I'm feeling pressured to know exactly what I want to do and how exactly I'm going to do it. Every single person I interact with has some question or another about college. When are you visiting colleges? When are you taking the ACT? What do you want to study? Have you started to think about where you want to go? And the only answer I have to all of these questions is a big fat I DON'T KNOW! But you know what? I've decided that that's ok. After consulting the expert (my mom, of course) who told me that she didn't know what she wanted to do even after she had graduated college, I realized that's it's ok not to know. I don't have to decide right now. Even if I am getting pressured from every angle to know all the details of my future life, at least I know that it's perfectly fine to just admit that I honestly don't know yet.
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I definetely agree with you on this zoe, there is an immense amount of unnecesary pressure and stress involved with the college selection process, and it often seems overwhelming. For me, it seems whenever my family has dinner with relatives or family friends, they grill me with questions like, "Where do you want to go to college, what do you want to study in college, what field do you want to go in to?" And my response is non other than , "uhhhhhhhhhh, I dunno..." I guess I just need to relax for awhile, after all, they say "college is a match to be made not a prize to be won."
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